a dancer's day

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

why do i do things i do?

sometimes i do things that i really regret. i don't like doing bad things, but sometimes it just kind of slips out. i want help on what i do! and i know that God can help with it. to tell you the truth, one thing i regret is, not asking God to to help me with what i do wrong. i really don't like it and i wish i always knew that God is always with me were ever i am. and if i knew that he's always here, i could ask him to help me. but when i do some thing that i don't like, i don't always know that then, that is satin taking over my life. i don't like it when he does that! so i need help destroying him! i know i probably can't do it by myself. i've always learned that satin hates to hear Gods name. so what i can do is, say God's name so many times, i can't say it any more. then i know that i have done what i can to destroy him. if i do some thing bad and get in trubble for it, i usally have to go to my room. i do love my room very much because that is were i most of my fun. but when you get sent to your room, you semply don't want to go. i have thought about it and have not yet come up with an answer. if you like your room why don't you want to go to it? why is your room the punishment place? ****************************************************************
while i am in my room, i think about why i am in my room. sometimes i think of the wrong thing and i blame my punishment on my brothers. and sometimes i think of the right thing and i absolutly regret what i did. i always wonder, why do i think about it after i did the wrong thing? why not before i do it. also, while i am in my room i think. . . . . . . . why do i do things i do?